GratitudeLog

Hi! Sorry I was not in here yesterday, there is just some days I'm not in the mood to be here, is that not strange? Yesterday was not a great day. Felt like shit all day. I hate to go shopping, all of the sudden I see my body from 2 sides and I go "Oh gosh, is that me". I felt like going home and pull the cover over my head and not do anything. Instead my BF was here and foreced me do do stuff. And he forced me to se that I am special and that he don't care how I look. I don't care, I care how I look and for me that was the most important yesterday. Today I'm feeling better. I'm meeting a friend, and later going to the movies to see Shutter Island. So looking forward to it!

I think it's healthy that people have different views that me. If everyone was like me life would be so boring! BORING!! Whats fun about that? I would never stop loving you because you say something you thing I wont like. I like hearing different views on things I'm meaning. And I'm taking it into consideration. I'm not going to eat so much fruit. Was a big case about it in the news paper here the other day, are you in control over the media in Norway O?

And I talked to my BF. Because I felt so bad about my body yesterday I talked to him about how I should eat. So I will try for 2 month and se if I loose some weight. I'm working out 3 days a week now, and I'm eating much more healthy than I did before, so it sucks that nothing happens to my body.

If you have not notice, I'm impatient! Very! If things don't work out the way I want or quick enough I get angry, and I just want things to work out at once. Very much so with my weight! I want to loose weight and get a more toned body NOW! Right now! I wish it was that simple.

Sorry todays note was just about body, body, body. I know the women was looked at as beautyful with hipps and ass before, but no more. My step sister and I have diffrent problems. None of us can find pant. She because she cant find a small enough size. Me because I can't find big enough. But yesterday I found one pants in one of the big stores in norway! XL! I'm so depressed by that! Not weird people get food desorders!

Don't need to write back on this. I just needed to get it out to somebody that is not my mum or boyfriend who thinks I'm beautiful all the time! I hate that at times, I wish they could just say: Yes C, today you look fat!!

Love you! Have a great day
C