GratitudeLog

Debbie Mayers

H♥E♥A♥R♥T To H♥E♥A♥R♥T

I am Grateful that The Universe/God/Angels helps me to know myself better and by doing so … helps me to help myself.

As I was contemplating what to write here today, I came to understand that the reason for not posting (in like forever!) was because of a deeply ingrained belief that I must struggle/suffer alone, esp. if I am responsible for it so I withdraw, as I have always done.

Back in June, I injured myself and now have, what is apparently called ‘Tennis Elbow.’ Not just a mild case either, so it’s been a very long 10 wks. It affects my hand/fingers as well, so typing has become more difficult. Not an excuse by any means … just facts!

Add to that, all the problems with logging in here to Gratitudelog and I simply have not been in my usual state of mind with being consistent, loyal & steadfast to all of you … ‘My Beloved, Great Big Family of Friends,’ … so I have robbed myself of many blessings, I’m sure! Plus … I miss ya! Sorry for my absence here, at least concerning posting or replying, however … I do read a lot of them when they appear in my email so I appreciate all of you for that. Thanks!

So … what does all of this have to do with knowing myself better? Glad you asked!

This is part of it, I think … I need to quit playing the ‘Blame Game’ towards myself, which I think we all know, also involves feeling like a victim/martyr and forgive myself and let myself ‘Off the Hook,’ yes?!!! (It’s a pity how easily it is to self-condemn when we wouldn’t even dream of doing that to our best friends, eh?)

Which, after having done that through granting myself some mercy and grace … makes it a whole lot easier to humble myself and ask for your good energies/prayer, which I do now. (I’m not sure which is worse … the physical discomfort and limitations or the mental/emotional pain?!!!) Now that I put it that way … I believe both are … as they kind of go hand in hand!!! Speaking of hands … I’d much rather hold yours!

Although I have been absent and my voice has been silent …

•*¨*•♫♪♫ ♥..♪♪♫•*My heart still beats with Gratitude for YOU.•*¨*•♫♪♫ ♥..♪♪♫•

At any rate … Here I am, allowing myself to be vulnerable (scary stuff, My Friends) and reaching Out To You … but most of all …Thanking you for being ….

♥♫♫♫♫♪♪♥♪♪♫♫♫♫♫ “My Great Big Family of Friends” ♫♫♪♪♥♪♪♫♫♫♫♫♫♫